I've Decided

We live in world where we're a little selfish, yet we're all so selfless. Where the most obvious things are the most complicated, yet the the subtle things in life are easy to get. I don't know. Sometimes I forget that I'm only nineteen. It's really hard to remember. I just want to be fifty already! Retired, own a yacht, and live on the beach until I croak. Oh, the agony. How I wish I was there, but then again, I really don't. I like being ninteen. No matter how confusing, frustrating, and absolutely horrid it may be a times. I like it. You're not tied down to anything (except for school work), but even then you're not obligated.

Being Nineteen allows you to smoke (ew!), and  you're legally an adult. I think more than anything though. The spiritual journey you begin when you're nineteen is something that I never thought would happen. It's absolutely cleansing. It's as if my eyes have finally opened, and I am much wiser now. I have met God, and Oprah, and Celine, and everyone I could ever imagine myself meeting (in my head obviously), I have yet to rise up and meet myself.

It will come though. That day will come, whether it be sooner or later--I don't know--and if you asked me a year ago I would have "freaked out" and maybe even cried, but today. I don't care. When it comes, it comes, but for today I'm just going to..well...live.

:)


Listen to this...

Yes, yes, YESH!!!

So, Halloween has come and gone, and I think I've developed a new love for this holiday that I never had before. It really is a wonderful holiday. A day to recapture your youth, a day to kick off the wonderful holidays to come, and a day to just laugh. I think I'm going to like future Halloween's. Anyways, it was a great week. I worked most of it (of course), but not all is in vein. I ran into two of the hippest, raddest, most fun seniors (as in, Senior, grade in school) on the planet, shout out--ERIN AND ELLEN--you guys made my night.

We got to dress up for work, and I'll most definitely post pics. I was a one hundred dollar bill, and a tiger, and today I'm going to be a mustard bottle. I'm saddened at the fact that it's our last day to dress up, but most definitely happy at the fact that THANKSGIVING is next. I just love Thanksgiving so much. I love the food, and the environment, and just the overall meaning of what the holiday is. It is so fantastic. The day after however, not so fun, but that's okay, I'll hold my head up high, and smile!

Then, there's Christmas. Honestly, I look forward to Christmas just because I get to pull out holiday music. I'm already listening to my Celine Dion Christmas CD. I just love it. I just love Celine!

Anywho, with the holidays coming so do finals, and the end of the semester, work, gift shopping, and so many wonderous things. My wallet is already feeling the effects of it, but we've all just got to stay pooooosssssiiiitttttive, and again, smile, and laugh, and maybe occasionally cry...from smiling and laughing. Well, I'm in a really good mood today. I hope I can keep it up. I'm going to share TWO videos. One, from the wonderful Celine Dion, because I feel everyone should hear her holiday album, and the other is from Legally Blonde: The Musical. It's called--Positive. Tee hee. Enjoy. ;)

It's been a while

It's been a long while since I've been on here. I really want this to become a daily thing, and if not, at least a weekly thing. I've been sickly, and gross. I have not been having fun with this, but it's leaving me--which is good. I have missed singing so much. I can't sing, due to horrible congestion and dryness in my throat, but I'll get there and when I can sing again. The shower will be my venue. :) I have a new baby cousin. Her name is CHARLY. Tee hee. I haven't met her, yet. Again, due to sickness. :( But I can't wait, from what I hear, she's AHHH dorable. I have been learning a lot lately. I feel like I've been reborn. A sort of renaissance that has opened my eyes to who I truly want to be. I was really confused for the longest time, but I think I know now. Which is a huge relief. Even if I'm still unsure as I to what I want to be when I "grow-up", at least having some direction leads me to something. So...I believe, once again, it's time for things "I know for sure..."


Things I know...

1. God lives and he loves me, and you, and everyone.
2. Music has saved and will always save me from myself.
3. My family rocks.
4. My friends rock, too!
5. Oprah is super inspirational.
6. Laughter is the best medicine.
7. Faith is the best hope.
8. Smile.
9. Beauty is only defined by how we perceive it.
10. Being different than the "norm" isn't being different at all.


It's time for some Ingrid. Enjoi.

Well...That was interesting.

This week was the beginning of school, and my goodness. It was wonderful, but so stressful. I think I'm going to like it here. I have no idea what I'm going to study, and that's ok by me. I decided to drop my Music class, and enroll in my Theatre class. I'm not going to lie--best decision EVER!

 Today was my first day and I learned more in this first day than in the last two days of my Music class, and we actually did...stuff, and my professor is amazing. He has so much energy and he really loves the craft. I think I'm going to like it--hopefully. He really reminded me of how much I love theater, and he actually reminds me a lot of Mr. Anderson. *tee hee.

I'm really weighing whether I should become a Theatre major. I either want to declare that or Communications. Still not sure. Hoping I can figure out. Then again, I may find something else that is interesting and go with that.

Today was a good day. :) A really good day. A really grateful day.


I think I should post A You Tube Video...This is the song we listened

in Theater. It seemed to fit then, and it still seems to fit now. Here we go...

Dear Oprah

Dear Oprah,

You are wonderful. You make me feel as if I can do anything. You are so thrilling to me. Your story and your life has become my muse and filled me with purpose. The fact that you are where you are inspires me to just live my life, and that even I; I who am a nobody can become somebody magnificent. Oprah, I will admit that I was a little hurt when I discovered you would be leaving me, forever, but I have come to terms with this, and I am genuinely happy for you. I think I realize now why you are doing this. It is time for change. I have learned this lately, moving from recent adolescent studies to the more sophisticated world of college. In a weird way it's sort of thrilling all this..."change." Perhaps, you enjoy the thrill. Yet, also I realize that now I was just ready for change, and perhaps that is your case also. Either way Oprah, know that you have changed my life, and I think and will never forget you for it. You rock!

Love Always,

Nathan Rust.

Dani S.

Dear Dani Staples,

I Love You! Ever since I discovered your love for Lady Gaga; I have developed a new found love for you. You are my soul sista, my honey bunches, my BOOM chaka laka. Dani, you are such a good person, and such a great friend, and although I don't know you well, I know you and I were meant to be. You have given me such laughter and happiness. Among other things I know you are a good person with a wonderful heart, and a beautiful spirit. Thank you Dani for entering into my life. You rock my socks!

Sincerely (your Beyonce lover friend),

Nathan

Which One?

Dearest Ex-Crush:

I just got over you last night when I finally came to my senses. You are a beautiful human being. You are funny. You are kind. You are most definitely eccentric, and I would love to be with you, but the world calls me for bigger things. Things you'd rather not be a part of, and that's fine, but don't hold me back. I love you, so much, but now I can't say that, because just admitting that means that there is still something there. I hope your life brings you happiness. I hope you find everything you've been searching for, and if not, I hope you hear me in the back of your head saying, "I told you so." Fare thee well my ex obsession, actually no. This is good-bye. Forever. Thank you. Thank you for letting me be me with you, and showing me that sometimes a crush; is just a crush. <3

No longer yours,

Nathan