Why ask?

I was watching the most revolutionary show the other day...Desperate Housewives. Bah! Okay, maybe not the MOST revolutionary, or even the most moral, but still a very good show (when it comes to VERY fictional television), anyways, but I did have an epiphany during Sundays episode. Susan Delfino had been struck down tragically during a protest in her neighborhood rupturing her one and only good kidney. So, she was in desperate need of a kidney.

So...fast forward a whole junk of drama happens and she gets a kidney from the ex-wife of her mortal enemy, but that's not important. In the hospital, while waiting for her kidney she meets fellow kidney transplant man, and befriends him...he dies. In this sudden death of her friend she wonders how she could receive a kidney? Why was she the one to live? What was she to do with her life because she had been given a gift?

Well...this is taking too long, but finally she asks her wise, elderly neighbor who tells her, "why ask?" And that is my point. I have been feeling the same way as Susan. I have been so blessed with an opportunity to study abroad, and to live in a good home, to have good and nice things in my life, but I ask "Why me?" Why do I get to be the one that is blessed with all these things? How am I special? I have met better candidates along my road in life, much wiser, much kinder, much gentler souls than mine, but yet I have been endowed with such a priviledge.

It's difficult for me to understand, but then again "why ask?" I have come to realize that my acceptance of the situation I'm in, regardless of whether it be good or bad. I have been blessed. It is my responsibility to react. If something goes wrong or right it is by mine own aura, mine own being, and that divine nature that brings me to understand what fate truly is.

That is life.

I'm going to England.
I am so blessed, and in that blessing I only hope I can return it to the universe, plus some.
That is my mission.

Yet, it's much more complicated to do, rather than to be done.
Right.
Ciao.

Enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_9CsW7TRxr0